Overwhelmed with GUILT!!

I don't know if I want to cry & roll over & never come out of my room or if I'm happy & excited. I just found out I'm having a girl! Before any of you judge me wrongly I have a very severe & serious medical condition that's VERY difficult to treat & has almost taken my life a few times. ..... AND it only passes to girls. I have a beautiful healthy boy & was hoping for another. I can't stop crying bc of the guilt I feel bc I don't want her to suffer the pain &  struggles I've had to endure. The hardest part.... We will never know if she has it or how bad until she reaches puberty ?