AF due tomorrow been trying for #2 over year

Zehra • 2 mirical babies girl and boy , recently seperated

I just ordered some more tests but I only have one left and I'm scared to rest

I have more pregnancy symptoms and had what felt like implantation cramps few days back

I just fear it's another neg

People keep saying I should be happy I have the one (as I have fertility issues and he was a miracle )

But it still breaks my heart