Totally done :(

Im sick of puting syringes 4 days each month for 2 and a half years now. No one can take puting needless syrings inside of me everymonth the thought about it is disgusting me. Im totalllly done. I wont be a mom. Ok no problem but i cant stand how people state at me or whisper behind my back. Hubby have physican issues so wr cant do it the normal way. 
​Im so depressed :( really i wish i die so early because i cant take the idea lf not being a mother and not be able tk knowhow my child will look like someday. We cant afford any medical treatment, no insurance. 
​I just want people and family to leave me alone. Its not my fault. I didnt ask for that... :'(