So completely confused

Emma • Mommy to toddler boy, found out we were pregnant with number 2, and miscarried at 6 weeks. 😔
So...as of today I am 11 days late, with no sign of AF. I have take 2 at home tests both BFN, emailed my doc and they had me come in for a blood test. And of course I got my hopes up... Only to be shot down again. The rest was negative, they want me to come back again in one week, for another blood. And only then will they schedule me an appointment to see my doc. SO frustrating! I have never wanted my period so much! I just want to get this cycle over so we can start again next. I don't understand why this has to be a struggle, the most basic human function! Anyone else in the same boat, or have been before?