I want a bfp but will take af instead

I am late and still havent got a bfp ,so no af no bfp ,what i have i got evaps .I am so sick of wasting hard earned money on testing daily in hopes of a miracle bfp .I come to realize that with writing this I will end up with af instead of a bfp so either way i can move on from this.I knew better to get my hopes up for bfp.what ever is going to happen let it happen already .my rant