I've got no hope left

I'm 9dpo and tested with a Clearblue digital test and got a bfn. I know that it is still very early and I may still get my bfp but I'm just tired of getting my hopes up. This makes month 10 of bfn's. Im not sure I can take even one more disappointment..

My stats:

9-10 dpo

Bbt 97.7 ( falling)

Cm: watery/crumbly with ewcm

Cervix: high, open, soft