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When I was younger In high school actually I would write letters to inmates . It sounds scary and all and now that I think of it kinda dangerous . I always felted let's say disconnected from everyone around me . Never got along with my family or even friends. that truth is I have never felt connected to anyone in life . I have friends but never close friends . I suppose that's what made me want to write to inmates because all tho I never did anything wrong I felt trapped like in jail . Always in my own little world .anyways I'm 30 now . And I'm planing to have kids one day . My closes my family are my brother and my mom and my husband . Sometimes I get scared that when I do kids they will feel in a sense lonely like I have felt .... I wonder if anyone has ever felt that way ??