fed up

I think I ovulated on 14th/15th this month so am currently on the TWW, I'm really hoping that this month is it for me and my partner. I say this every month and have done for the past 15months and it never happens I just get so fed up with negatives or AF showing. had a doctors appt today and she made me take a pregnancy test and it came back negative. This was a urine test. I know its not possible for it to show positive this early but I hope it doesn't jinx me for the future. I hope I miss my period and get a bfp