Feeling really hurt ?

My fiancé is a great guy . He had done so much for me and my boys and now we are having are own we are excited ... I have been so emo and  stressed. I cry all the time ... And I feel like my fiancé only wants me to have sex with me and nothing more ... Porn is always on his iPad ... It never bugged me before but I feel gross and unwanted... I'm trying so hard to be happy but I'm so stressed and we are moving to a new state soo that means I'm going to be with out medical insurance for a month or so cuz I have Medicaid and I'm high risk cuz of my medical history ... I'm ready for this baby to come so I can feel like myself again...ok vent over I feel so bad so plz no hurtful comments