RANT!!

Well, the title says it all.

I'm on the verge of bursting into tears as I've due for AF 5 days ago, and still getting negative HPTs. I'm confused, I don't get it.

I have yet to call my doctor for blood work.

I'm rather nervous to do so, I've never had to call for blood work ?

I'm worried my doctor won't do anything until I have a clear positive pregnancy test, but I don't think I'll be getting one.

I'm heartbroken. ?

On top of all of this, my fiancé is in California (military; USMC) while I'm in Oregon, making it more difficult ttc. We lost a baby at 3 months pregnant back in April 2013.

It was a very unexpected pregnancy, as I was on birth control and was unaware that if I missed a night I'd get pregnant, I'd been on birth control for a year when I got pregnant (around 1/28/13) .. I got my positive on 4/21/13 and my miscarriage was confirmed on 4/24/13. I'm completely shattered, I don't know where to turn or how to.

I feel let down. ?

I'm 20 days past ovulation, I don't understand! ?

Has anyone experienced getting negative HPTs but a positive blood test?

A girl can definitely hope. ??

Sorry for the long post, I just have a lot on my mind.