Lonely and miserable...

I thought Xmas holidays will help me to relax but after the 4th pregnancy annoucement , I found myself crying in bed...I cannot be happy for the pregnant women anymore... how can I be so selfish and miserable??

After 9 months TTC I feel very sad and lonely.. DH does not really understand how I feel.. I had a mc in July but since then I did not manage to get pregnant again. I am 35 and TTC#1...