Surprise pregnancy, ended in early m/c

Erin • Early MC Oct `14 & Missed MC April `15 🤰🏼with our 🌈🤞🏼💕 Due April 2019
My first/only pregnancy was a surprise. 
5 days after I learned I was pregnant we lost the baby.  The baby was a surprise but was so very much wanted. 
 I want a new happy surprise someday but I feel like this app is cheating and scheming and making me "plan" a new pregnancy... I just got this app 10 days ago but it makes me feel sneaky!!