sad and resentful

so i got married while i was still in high school and thats literally all i ever wanted because I didnt think i could do much else besides be a wife. i got ok grades, i didnt apply for colleges because i never thought of it as an option because i didnt have money, my mom ruined my credit, i couldnt get loans. I could cook and I loved to write, that was it. After I got married, I was so happy! we graduated, got an apartment and local jobs. we started trying for a baby. we hit a rough patch and almost divorced but worked through it. Then we moved to a new town, got better jobs. I had two miscarriages. We then moved to our home town and i got pregnant in april 2014. baby girl was born 3 months early in september 2014. Dont get me wrong I love my baby and my husband, but now that i am seeing all the wonderful things my friends are doing with their lives (RN, EMT, Navy, etc) i am just so saddened that I didnt try to pursue more for myself before settling down. That i didnt want to be more than just a wife and mom. i had dreams but never went for them. i dont know, i guess im just blaming my husband and its not his fault. its mine. not sure what to do here.