Overcoming Sexual Abuse

I was molested as a child by my adoptive father from ages 4-12yrs. I struggled for a while after that, due to my own insecurities and misunderstandings coupled with my family (including my adoptive mother) struggling to act appropriately after it all came forth. The perp is in prison and will be for several more yrs. I need help because I fear it effects my sex life with my husband. I have a really hard time expressing myself sexually, and I tend to get awkward (which bothers me cuz I feel I look a lot sexier than I can accurately portray how I feel). I also sometimes find myself zoning out during even the most pleasant of experiences which I know is a habit/reaction from my youth, but brings problems cuz I come off as cold, unresponsive, or not enjoying my husband for the man he is. Its too late for me to heal myself before marriage, but I want to "fix" this before kids. I am hoping for advice from other survivors of ways how they worked through their issues and perhaps found themselves healed. I bought the book Sacred Woman by Queen Afua, but i feel so alone taking this on alone with only my husband, my only friend, no women to help in my life. I am 23yrs, BTW I dated my husband since 15, moved together at 18, married at 20. Other than this we have few big issues. Any advice, please, and thank you in advance 💜