I feel like I'm out need to vent

So I was so convinced that this was the cycle I would see my BFP. I had tons of pelvic pressure and fatigue since 4dpiui. I've been having AF cramps since Tuesday and she isn't due until earliest Sunday. I'm 10 DPIUI and tested 7dpiui/9dpiui and today. All BFN on the Waldfo test. I feel AF is coming. BBs sore but that's just a sign she gives me when she is on her way. Pressure in ab like AF, again another warning sign. IDK I'm really sad. :-( I'm tired of treatments, tests, bloodwork, and no BFP.