7 dpooo

Ahhh im 7 dpo even though i still think this month isn't mine im still impatient im not gna test until af is due cause i do get very upset when it's a bfn. The reason why i also think i wont concieve is cause my male hormone is slightly elvated and someone told me it can cause me not to concieve :( im soo beyond sad i can say im waiting for a miracle. Anyone else in same boat and would like to join me? Af due on 22nd