HAD ENOUGH!!!

CD 54 and still nothing!!!! Sooooooooo FED UP!!!!!! My marriage is now falling apart! Iv started treatment which is NOT working btw! I'm a million miles from friends and family as moved abroad for what turned out to be a loser of a husband U married. Iv just had enough. I'm stuck in this awful country with a psycho! In the last 5months Iv had 3 AFs all abnormal compared to what I normally have. Iv been trying to be patient with my SO and with my AF situation. I just want my regular cycle back. Iv been regular my entire life and im 30yrs old. I hate this country, hate my SO more and miss my loved ones so much. I'm sobbing as I write this. Iv made the BIGGEST mistake of my life!!!! I barely leave the house only to go to my mils house Iv had enough. What my life back and to get out of this shit hole! I'm not even interested in TTC anymore with this psycho! He's called me a whore, kicked me and completely destroyed my confidence since I married him last year. I hate him with a passion! 😢😢😢😢