Im not ready💔

My babies due date is coming up, and for most people this is the happiest time in their life, but im not ready to face this day..because I lost my child at 5 weeks. I should be still carrying my child, I should be seeing their eyes in twelve days, but instead my baby will enter the arms of God. I trust the Lord to care for my baby with much love, I just wish my baby would be with me..any support would be amazing 💔