Depression

I started taking 3 different antidepressant/anxiety meds after my second hospital visit (most recent) and I'm 16. About 5 months in taking them they started to make me feel pumped with chemicals and artificial (I'm a hippie so that wasn't working for me) and I stopped taking them. I don't feel much different but I've been on and off. Can anyone else relate/have antidepressant advice?