Mentally Drained

Two week wait ends tomorrow but so far all negative pregnancy tests been trying for two years, had one ectopic and another miscarriage at 8 weeks and I don't know how much more I can take. Tried to distract myself by checking news and some guy in CT threw his baby off a bridge and then tried to jump to kill himself. The poor baby died and he lived. Stories like this make me cry and question why God gives people like this babies and meanwhile my husband and I would do anything to have one. I need to pray more because I am officially out of strength. If anyone has anything encouraging or ways you deal with this please share.