Hate my man. I cant leave because he wont let me. He doesn't work. Most he ever works is 3 days when he gets a job. In april we got our lights cut off and luckily but not really i crashed and got a check for him and me and paid the lights in june. I don't work because he doesn't want me to and when i do he harasses me at work and always thinks I'm cheating. Its embarrassing so i rather not. He's so possessive can never leave me alone. I hate him. He says if i cheat hell kill me and the person.. This month there gonna cut our water..already cut our phones. Im trying to get a job but i hate that he wants to drop me off in my own car. I want to escape..one time i had skype sex...with a dude i was dating when i first met my bf..but i felt so bad i wasnt doing anythin and i told him..i did it because i wanted him to leave me but infelt bad and asked for forgiveness..but thats the worse ive done..I guess im paying for that now..i hate him and me so much..