4am today Just two days away from my first ultra sound with my first  I miscarried. It's a horrible horrible feeling for me . It's worse than any heart break I've endured knowing a piece of me is gone. I'll never question God but I began to blame myself even though doctors were telling me it was nothing I did wrong. I can't sleep and the pain is out of this world. I wish I could trade places with my baby but God knows what he is doing. my family is so sad as well but they see this as a second chance . I have a lot going for me and I guess God wants be to become successful first then he will send me my dream guy then a beautiful family. I'm more motivated than ever now . But I hurt 😓