What just happened

My fiancé and I have been together since I was a freshman in high school and now we are both in college. well our sex life has been a little dull and I stopped asking for sex in hopes he would start wanting it more and all of a sudden we just had the most intimate moment we had in at least 3 years and didn't even have actual sex...I'm literally shaking I know it sounds nasty but I've needed this excitement and I just can't express what I'm feeling right now