C Section

Hi...I'm 7weeks and 3days Pregnant with my second child. I had to have a c section with my first due to a placenta abruption. I am so nervous to have a c section again. I also dread the spinal...it is the worst part for me. Anyone have any way to calm my nerves about the spinal?? I know I have a long time until my due date but my anxiety is at an all time high when I think about another spinal.