Anxious

So we had our "gender" scan but it was super quick and they didn't do any measurements. I am going into maternal fetal medicine on October 28th for the "anatomy" scan combined with a fetal echocardiogram. My doctor insists on it because my second child, Mackenzie died of an undetected heart defect. She said that if they find something more than likely we will be delivering in Denver, CO (I live in Billings, MT) so that after delivery the baby would be whisked away for surgery asap. I am glad they are taking necessary precautions but it makes me nervous that they won't find anything and we will have to go through another death. I am also going to be requesting that our son get an echocardiogram asap anyways once he is born. I am a nervous wreck and I'm only 18 weeks 3 days. I don't want to deliver in Denver because that means I will more than likely have to have another C-section and I do not want one unless I absolutely medically have to. Ugh there are also many things I am thinking of now. I also am worried about having things for our son. We have all girl things nothing gender neutral other than of course the crib, swing and bassinet. I'm freaking out over everything