I got off depo last November and have been TTC with zero luck. Before depo i had irregular periods, as in maybe once a year. But now my period won't go away. While at a doctors appointment we discovered that my kidneys and liver aren't doing well and my body is under too much stress to get and stay pregnant. I am too overweight and my diabetes is doing bad as well. Both these things I am trying to change. I know I shouldn't try to get pregnant right now, but it's just so hard. It is all I want and all I can think about. I am so depressed because I can't get pregnant and everyone around me have kids or are pregnant.

And I have no one to blame but myself. I never should have gotten on depo, causing me to gain 2.5x the weight I lost in the last couple years, lost control of my diabetes, harming my organs, and who knows what else.

I just want to have a child of my own, but I know I need to wait to have a healthy pregnancy. I'm sick of seeing those BFN but it's the best thing for now.