I dont even know what to call you, us, or our relationship...all i know now, is you're my past. We've been best friends, we've been lovers, and now we're strangers. I miss you. I miss our friendship..I miss what we had, before you left for the Army. I wish you would have asked me to wait for you..I wish you hadn't left to begin with...I wish we could have been friends again when you came home. But you can't be 'just friends' with someone, when your heart wants more. Im sorry I had to cut you off, with no goodbye and no explanation. Im sorry I couldn't stop my feelings for you. Im sorry I cried when you said you might leave again. Im sorry I couldn't sleep when you asked me to stay with you when your friend passed away. Im sorry I cant be there for you now. Im sorry that I cant bring myself to tell you any of this. Im sorry that we slept together after years of flirting & sexual tension. Im sorry that after almost 10 years, I cant watch you self destruct any more. I love you, I've always loved you...but you need to stay in my past where you belong. Goodbye </3