He's not paying the right attention.

So I really need to vent .. I cant control it anymore.. I feel like i have to throw myself at my SO when ever i want sex. Im the initiator everytime. I feel like hr doesnt want me sexually. Every time we do thw nasty he nuts then goes to sleep.. I find myself waiting on him to wake up so i can get a nut too. But it never happens he just sleeps.. This particular time i waited 2 f*****n weeks and he does his same routine. I feel like a nut rag. And like he just haves sex with me cause i want it. I always have to beg for round 2. And he never gives it ro me. Wtf. I feel like a used nut rag. How do i start feeling attractive again, after these one way sexual encounters. I mean i do all the riding suckin kissing every fucking thing. It seems like he isn't even concerned if i get off or not.. I dont get off on fingering myself or sex toys. I need a mental connection. Omg help me pls