Scared to test! (Just venting)

I am in an awful position, I had a hormone imbalance that stopped my period for long chunks of time, so every month I thought I was pregnant. After trying for 6 months and getting 1 periods the whole time I went to the doc who tried to help balance out the hormones with progesterone. I finally got my period, and the doc said it was safe to try. Now I'm 8dpo and terrified to even buy tests because I'm scared that I'll get a bfn and miss my period again. I feel like I'm never going to get pregnant, like I'm not worthy. Everything looks like a symptom and I feel like I'm starting to lose it! Ugh!

Thank you for letting me get that off my chest. I feel a bit better now.