I know this is going to sound selfish i KNOW how hard it is ttc and seeing a bfn time and again and the just defeat that brings. But i have a son a wonderful lil boy i adore and i really want after a year of ttc to have a little girl. I dreamed of a little girl already had 2 or 3 outfits for a lil girl i just really wanted a daughter. We had the gender reveal today and it was blue balloons and i hid the hurt i sucked up the tears and smiled. But inside my heart broke it hurt and i wanted to break down. I know this is stupid and selfish but I wanted to cry as my SO celebrated and cheered then happily announced the boy name. I've been sitting in the bath for a half hour quietly crying and trying to convince myself that its ok a boy will be easier and just as much loved and i know I'll love my baby regardless. But I'll be damned it still hurts. Please say someone else has had this problem. :-(