Pregnant Again 😔😔😔😔

Please no judgment. Need to just vent and maybe get advice. I just had my daughter Nov 2nd and im pregnant again. We tried to be careful but my bf isn't the best at pulling out and he's not always quick enough I guess. Idk what to do. We have a 20 month old as well. I'm thinking abortion even tho it's not what I really want but this is just too much. I really just want to know why? Like is this a sign from God? Like is 3 kids so close in age supposed to be my life? Or is it just supposed to be my two? I'm so confused and don't know what to do. I hate that I put myself in this situation and I just don't know I think of it all day sorry if this isn't in the right room I just don't know where to post it. Why did this happen to me. I want to keep my baby but people will judge I mean my daughter is only 2 months!!! How will I handle 3 kids under the age of 3 ? I have 2 kids under 2 now and I get overwhelmed 😔😔 what would you do if you were in my shoes? Please help