Oh baby!

So... here recently my SO & I decided to start TTC, It's been about 2 weeks since we made the decision. We've wanted a baby for a long time but have waited due to us not being ready, we're young. I'm 20 & He's 21& we've been together for 4 years. & one day it happened.. we ditched the condoms, he got off in me & after the deed was done, I panicked. I was so excited & I thought I was ready for this but noooope. I cried all evening.

And that really upset my SO, he said it was o.k. that clearly I'm not ready but nothing about that seemed okay. You could hear it in his voice and see it in his eyes that he was in fact disappointed with me.. since then, sex hasn't been the same... he asks if we can try again & now I just panic & that ruins everything.