I'm not ready for this to be over 😔

I started bleeding Tuesday morning, and passed the entire sac intact on Wednesday morning. Starting yesterday I noticed that the bleeding is starting to taper off. I really can't wait to be able to have sex with my husband again, but I'm just not ready to let go of what was. I know my angel is gone, and I have somewhat come to terms with it, but every day I feel my body getting back to normal and it is killing me. I so badly want all of those little reminders of my angel to come back. I wish I could be horribly nauseous again, I wish my boobs hurt, I wish I was super bloated to the point that I felt like I was going to explode. Those were the things that told me I was experiencing a miracle, and now every last piece of that miracle is just gone...