I wish..

I wish I could cut the cord on my anxiety maybe then you wouldn't find it so difficult.

I wish I didn't have bad days with depression.

I wish I wasn't scared of happiness

I wish I hadn't been so sad that now it doesn't feel normal to be happy. When you have suffered so long it feels embarrassing to crackers a smile because people notice.

I wish I was a better girlfriend

I wish I didn't nag

I wish I could be more than I.

I wish I knew how to be happy.

How do you break through. How do yoh not let the crowd intimidate you. How do you see past the grey. How do you learn to be happy. How do you pull your self out of the well when there no one there to help you instead they just wait on the other side till you manage to come out.

How do you stop degrading your self and find the strength to realise you are beautiful. How do you stop being a pain and a burden to people because you can't do certain things. Because sometimes when you really are happy you just forgot how you show it.

I wish I was a better person.