Depressed? Mad? Stupid?

So I am in a long distance relationship and we're really good! We talk all the time and almost always have visits scheduled. I live in Arizona right now and he lives in Michigan. I am always mad and don't want to be here though, I have a job and some family lives down here. But I honestly don't want to be here and I can't leave for another year or two. I'm always sad I'm not with him and don't know what to do. I don't really do much other then sit at home & go to work. I feel really bad about it since I could be laughing and enjoying family. But instead I'm always at my house talking to him or being sad cause I'm not talking to him.