He's scared, stressed, and having some health concerns that interfere with his career (which I understand sucks so I've been really trying to be supportive and understanding because his career is not only his job but his biggest dream)

Anyway he's constantly telling me how stupid I am and how much he is mad at me and Hates me literally just all the time. And it's crazy bc I never text him first or anything bc I'm trying to give him space and when he texts me a niceish message I'll reply and he completely flips and is back to putting me down.

For the sake of my baby's Health and mine during this pregnancy I've just been trying to stay distant until he gets his shit together bc I'm so stressed and sad and that's not ok especially during this happy time in my life... After all I'm carrying life.

Anyway I haven't been out or doing anything bc I'm obviously pregnant (still early only 9 weeks) and I've been suffering from extreme morning sickness and have been in and out of the hospital getting fluids.

There was a party last night (we are both in our twenties, I'm early 20s and he's later 20s so it isn't some highschool party or anything weird like that) it was an nfl players house so it was really nice and there were a ton of people. Guess who I see... My baby's father.

He's not allowed to speak for two weeks bc of his health condition so it was weird that he was at a party where he literally couldn't communicate. All of his friends said hi to me and him and I just avoided eachother. I could see him looking at me or purposely standing closer or being in the same area as me (the house is huge like find somewhere else) (also this is so childish I know and it's driving me nuts) we just keep avoiding eachother and I'm just feeling really sad at this point and I also threw up bc morning sickness so I just left(we left at the same time 🙄) I get home and fall asleep and then wake up and he texts me 

"I'm so annoyed. I want to talk to you but I hate you and it's so annoying it's seriously driving me nuts"

Like wtf do I do. I wanna be there for him but I can't bc he's evil and I need him right now I'm struggling with this morning sickness and it's all just so childish to me. I'm heartbroken I'm tired of being put down I don't want to deal with this but I also want him. I want him to just grow up quicker bc I'm emotionally drained