I spent 10 days in a psych ward.

I'm done with this mental health stigma. I've been in denial for a while now that I needed help.

On Easter Sunday I overdosed on antidepressants and pain killers and I still don't clearly know why. I started Lexapro and within a week I felt 10x worse than I have before and I hit a new low and woke up in the hospital. I was transferred to a military hospital where I stayed for 10 days in their psych ward.

I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and Primary Hypothyroidism while I was there. My thyroid tsh (?) levels were almost 200 times higher than normal. The doctors told me with the levels I had I should have been in a coma already, and that I could have died if I had gone untreated for much longer. I tried to kill myself and ended up discovering I could have slipped into a coma and died anytime anyway.

Funny how stuff like this happens, huh.

I NEVER thought I would EVER try to kill myself. I have a husband, family, friends, and pets to live for. But I am my own worst enemy apparently.

I was afraid to ask for help.

But now I feel better. I am on better medication, that I have to refill every week because I can't be trusted with a months supply now. I have therapy groups two times a week with people who understand what I'm going through and go through it thenselves and I have my family and command backing me as well.

I'm not putting this anonymously because I don't care anymore. I have nothing to hide or be ashamed of.

I just want people who feel the same way to be able to ask for help before they get to the same point I got to. Before it's too late.