Dont Judge me!

So I am currently 27 weeks pregnant.I'm 20 about to be 21 years old And my boyfriend is 24 years old.This pregnacy was not planned n i was depressed as hell wen i found out cuz i kinda figured he was gone b like this. I though that him knowing he has a baby on the way he will change but i guess not . Now I've been telling him since last year in November since he lost his job to find another job and my friend works at a warehouse and could easily get him in it just has to stop smoking weed ! January 1st came around I'm like so it's New Years and I have a baby on the way can you stop smoking he said he knows what he's doing now it's already April and I'm about to be 7 months and he still doesn't have a fucking job and I'm irritated... I wanted to have everything set and ready for when my baby gets hereand im buying my baby everything by myself! I feel like if I'm going to be doing everything on my own I might as well be a single parent if he's not going to do nothing he don't need to be around!!! I don't feel like I'm wrong , I'm tired of having to repeat myself to a grown ass man I shouldn't have to keep telling him to do this and do that and then get into a argument with him because he feels like I'm nagging him I'm just so irtitated I just don't want to be pregnant by him. I mean there aint shit i can do now about it but damn ! Gettin pregnant by him was the wrong decision even tho it wasnt planned ... And i dont believe in abortions ... I want a lil family but i dont want him he dont even turn me on no more n we live together ...i want to have sex with him but then i start thinkin n get disgusted like uugh u dont deserve shit from me so we really havent been havin sex at all ...He is a little boy stuck in a grown man's body and I'm tired of him.

Just Had To Get That Off My Chest