Heart broken

When the person u love tells u that there's us nothing u xan do to get them back & that ur mindset isn't where he wants it to be in order for ur relationship to work cuts deep. It makes u rethink a lot if decision u have made & the past & will make in the future. Its making me think my intellect isn't where it should be or even that I should be in any relationship. I will admit I have a serious marijuana addiction & sometimes wen we get into I can smoke calm down & not be upset @ all just wants some love but him in the other hand will still be upset about the smallest things even hours later.. I admit throughtout the realtionshio i would lir about samll things which ruined the trust a little early in the relationship . Here we are a year later & Its got to the point where seduction was the only way to make him not worry about what he was angry about in the first place .. Ive delt w. a lot from verbal abuse to physical threats .. Even though he never actually did it I someone deep down inside felt that he just might ... Even through all of that I still love him & believe w. time apart we could work through things.. Or in the readers opinion was it all just for the best ?

BTW IM 19 & HES 23 ( Do you think the age difference played a part ? )