Procrastination

I have been waiting to be 35+ weeks and to pack bags and install carseat and nest and make freezer meals. Well, here we are, 33 days away from my c section, and like I just don't feel like it. Yeah, I'm tired. but more than that, I just don't believe this is real. I don't feel like I'm having a baby in a month. I mean, I'm very obviously expecting and it hurts, but now that it's getting closer, it's all so distant lol