Sweetest boyfriend

So I did get positives but they never got darker and sadly, AF came. It's not a normal cycle to say the least because I'm not cramping or sweating or dropping clots(sorry tmi) left and right. It's just a red light flow. My family said that there still could be a chance I could be because I did have a set of twins before but lost one during the pregnancy but I'm not holding my hopes high. My mom said that I should have just left the mattress alone and not done such heavy lifting and waited for help but she knows I'm stubborn. Everyone is still holding hope that I could still be but I know that I'm not. Anyways, my boyfriend was feeling really bad because he knows how bad we have been trying and because this has been so stressful, he decided on a spontaneous trip!! It was so sweet of him to do this. We got a suit and just the nicest service. He has been a little stand off-ish because he really doesn't know how to comfort me during this but said that we should just let things be and if it's meant to be it will happen. I know that many would just be upset and honestly I was very disappointed but with everything going on, I'll just let things happen. If they were meant to be then we will conceive and if not, I have a wonderful boyfriend to share my life with. Now I will still kinda keep track but now, it's just to have fun. If it happens then it happens. Baby dust to all out there.