Addict: I am addicted to ...

Hello there. I feel like I am addicted to porn. I am a 18 y/o straight female practicing abstinence. I watch porn probably every once in a while when I'm bored mainly. Sometimes I make myself suffer and watch but don't actually give in to masturbate but within me it still needs that satisfaction and I give in. I would say I probably masturbabte 2 or 3 times out of a month. But this month it's probably been 5 or more. I feel so guilty I normally watch lesbian porn because the thought of oral sex just turns me on I don't know what it is. I get really excited thinking about it. Maybe it's because every since I was a little kid and my mother would be like keep your hands from between your legs when you have to pee because young ladies aren't supposed to do that. And idk the thought of someone's head between my legs drive me insane. Idk if the reason why all this is happening is because I am coping with my loss "ex" or idk. Anyone else out there. Would it be a good idea to create a group for porn addicts? Do you think I'm a porn addict?