Self conscious about my sideburns 😔

So my whole life I've had sideburns and noticeable ones too. They're black so they're really noticeable on my tan skin. But the hairs are also on my cheek and although those aren't as thick I still feel completely self conscious and uncomfortable about them. I have tried waxing and shaving, but with the waxing I got a really bad skin reaction and with the shaving it looked so ugly when the hairs were growing back. I look in the mirror and I absolutely hate seeing so many hairs on my face and cheeks. I don't have enough money for a laser treatment so I'm just stuck with them. I wanna not hate them as much but they just make me feel like I was a man and that all this much hair shouldn't be on a girl. Any advice on how to deal with this situation is super appreciated :(