I'm pregnant, husband cheated, yet I don't want to work it out anymore? Rant/advice needed?

It's been 9 months since the last time he's cheated on me because he said he "moved on" when we were on break yet he two timed me and the girl for a whole month and I found out I was pregnant. He cheated on me a year and a half ago and was secretly texting a minor.... making her believe that I forced him to stay with me. I'm still so heart broken over everything and I've stopped trying. I've lost my motivation in life and I'm now 8 months pregnant. I've thought of giving birth, and leaving my child with him and just be gone forever from this pain. I've thought of staying and working it out but everything. ... all the things I used to love is filled by thoughts of him and the other woman he was with. No he hasn't made a mistake since then, he's not contacted her etc. But what does that prove? Nothing in my eyes because he still did it. He was my first love, my first boyfriend. .... of 5 years. We were culturally married and it all fell down. Every time I try to express myself, he says I'm playing victim and that he's a victim also (because I was online chatting with other guys while he went and actually fucked a girl)... I'm so hurt. And lost. There's not a week that goes by where I don't cry every 2 days. I don't want to go to a counselor because I'm afraid that he'll go to jail because he was talking with a minor and he used to abuse me also (that's why I left him/went on a break in the first place). He doesn't see that. And everyday, he wakes up and doesn't realize that I have insomnia and can't sleep so I'm cruising on Facebook and he accuses me of cheating all the time. It hurts because I never physically went and fuck around and I never two timed him. I'm so lost guys. ...

Yes now he doesn't physically hit me. Yes he's emotionally abusive and we have no real connections. No real talks whatsoever and I can honestly say its because of me. I don't enjoy my time with him because all the things we used to do. ..he did it with another person. No not even having sex anymore either because I'm emotionally damaged.... he's been sweet at times and helps cook for dinner and clean... but it just doesn't cover up the pain that i'm going through. .... help?