Once you and your SO had a break, and came back to work your relationship, would you still celebrate your "old anniversary"?

Sorry I meant to add more details on my other poll but it got deleted.

My SO and I have been together for 6 years. Tomorrow would be our 5th year of marriage if I were to celebrate it.... but I don't know if I want to.

He calls me selfish, self centered etc for forgetting about our anniversaries. It's not that I forgot them. .... it's that i'm trying to forget them.

We broke up last year because he cheated on me. He told that girl that I forced him to be with me... that he was bounded to me by our Asian culture and I was psychotic.. yes he became very abusive. .. I won't go into too much details. It hurts me soo much even until this day. After I broke up with him, I told that girl everything and they supposedly went their separate ways. On our break, he said he "tried"to move on and went to fuck another girl for a month while trying to work it out with me. What I don't understand is that if he tried to move on, why two time me? I never found out about the other girl until I got pregnant... too late to change anything now.

So it's been 10 months now.... and I'm still heart broken. I don't want to give my old self up to him. ... the one who did everything for our anniversaries. .... I cooked delicious meals.. baked cakes and cookies. .. bought him new clothes. ... I realized it was all a waste of my time and effort for such special occasions. Back then, he honestly forgot most of our anniversaries. The only time he remembered to buy me something is if he looked on Facebook and realized it was valentine's day or if i asked for it from him. ... And guess what, every year it was going to Walgreens and buying me flowers. One time he bought me flowers that said something in Spanish, and we don't even know Spanish LOL... shows the kind of effort he puts into it.

Yes he's changed now. He's not physically abusive anymore, but emotionally he is. That's why I can't even explain to him why I feel the way I feel because he thinks I'm playing victim since he claims I cheated on him by going online and trying to meet new people on our break when he was the one who broke me in the first place and still went and got free pussy from another woman. He is still the only one who I have had sexual intercourse with so I don't know what he's even talking about. I just feel like I'm so wrong with everything that I do.

I'm jealous and hurt. With him being with that other girl, he bought her everything. Clothes,each of their names engraved on their bracelets for one another. .. actual real pretty flowers from flower stores and not just from Corner stores... he even took her to new places and old places (where he and I always went to) to hang out at. He got into romantic movies with her and with me, he got so annoyed wheni wanted to watch movies by Nicholas sparks.

Should I even waste my time and celebrate our "marriage"? I honestly don't even think/feel like this is a marriage anymore. Not since I found out what he really felt about me two years ago. I'm so heart broken.