Yesterday I was supposed to graduate from grad school.  I didn't go because it's out of state and I didn't wanna be far from my hospital because my baby has complications.  I was very hurt that nobody made an effort to help me celebrate at home.  I was told we were going out for dinner then hubby fell asleep so I ended up eating Burger King at 8pm by myself.  Now today I'm supposed to go to a baby shower and don't feel like it.  Yes I'm jealous that I can't have a shower since it's my second and prognosis is iffy.  Yes she is allowed to be jealous that I get pregnant even while trying to avoid pregnancy and she needed a fertility doctor.  But I also don't wanna have to field questions about my pregnancy to people I barely talk to.