Feeling alone

We tfmr last Friday. I find that most people "lost" their babies to miscarriage. We made the decision to say goodbye to our much wanted and loved baby because of T21 and a fatal heart condition. We chose to spare or baby any suffering as a life wasn't possible. I want to talk about my baby, I want to talk about my hopes and dreams for our baby that will never be and I want to talk about another pregnancy, trying again. We have seen a counselor and being able to talk was so cathartic that now all I want to do is talk. I have no friends in the city we live in, and no one who understands... my mum thinks it's morbid that I have my babies footprints, but they make me so happy and I was so sad that her reaction wasn't positive.... I guess I just needed to say all this and this is the only place I have.