Ugh I can't stand my SO

I have 2 kids from a previous relationship one plan and the other one is results of a rape. He have no kids and we agreed to work on having our own together. I do talk about it a lot but we live in 2 different states. And now my cousins are having their babies this year months apart. And my best friend aka God sister is having a baby now and I'm like hey I want to have one now more then anything. We been trying for almost 2 years now. Do I'm hoping August it happens its my birthday and anniversary and ovulation just days apart within each other. What should I do. And he does take care of our 2 now.