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These symptoms sound a lot like how my disease started. It's call Pulmonary Arterial Hypertension. Most doctors don't know to test for it. It very dangerous to be pregnant with my condition, but I'm trusting an awesome staff of 3 doctors to get me through pregnancy safely. I hope they figure out what is going on with you. It's such a scary feeling not knowing. It took them 6 months to diagnose me. Best of luck!
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Today I did something I never in a million years thought I would be capable of doing.. A couple hours ago I terminated my pregnancy. The ONLY reason I made this horrible and extremely hard decision is because of my health. I have an unknown heart condition that has been affecting me since the beginning of the year, my doctors have all warned me how dangerous it was to my health to move forward with my pregnancy. Not knowing if my heart could handle creating life while trying to keep myself alive. I have a murmur, along with an unknown disease which involve symptoms such as - a racing heart for no reason, lightheaded and dizziness, and sometimes blacking out with no warning. It got so bad I was driving to work one day and the next thing I knew I had hit a jersey wall on the highway totaling my car (thankfully I had not hit anyone else and I walked away with minor bruises & scratches as well as a fractured wrist. But the fact that I had NO warning I was about to black out and I had an accident, the state took my liscence away until I am cleared by my cardiologist to drive safely. All of these things contributed to me making this gut wrenching decision to terminate my baby's life. Not being able to do a thing about my heart condition until after birth, not being able to drive as a new mom, and the added stress on my mind of what COULD happen to either myself or my baby, (while being only 20 years old and unmarried) made my choice for me. I know God will punish my in some way, I just pray it not be that I become infernal or can't have children in the future. Please keep the hate away as I already know how most people feel about abortion, I just needed to vent and get this off of my chest even a little bit. I already feel like a worthless piece of crap for doing what I did.. But I did what I felt was best .. How could I raise a child without getting myself healthy first?
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I'm so very sorry you had to make this heart wrenching decision, and you truly are a brave woman for making the responsible choice for yourself and your baby. No one, including God, should want to punish you for wanting to protect your health and safety. Be gentle with yourself as you come to grips with what just happened, and remember that time does heal.
Please don't ever feel like God will punish you for doing what you had to do. He is an understanding God and knows your reasons. I too had to get an abortion one time because of a medical condition. I don't think the baby would have survived further anyway but the way that the pregnancy was making me feel on top of the symptoms of my disease that I was having at the time ended up putting me in the hospital on all types of medications, bags of liquids, and multiple blood transfusions. I completely understand what you are going through right now and I felt very guilty for a very long time until I was able to make peace with my decision. I don't want you to feel guilty like I did. I wish I had made peace earlier and understood earlier that it was a priority in that situation to take care of myself first. In the future, I hope that you are able to find the medication that you need to help you live a full life! Best wishes!
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I strongly agree ! Our GOD is a forgiving GOD !
I'm so sorry to hear about your health condition and the hard decision you had to make. You made the best decision, as even your doctors had even recommended it. Please don't be so hard on yourself! God will not punish you for your decision, and you should no punish yourself either. Stay strong and keep your head up! Your health is important and I hope you are able to find out what is going on. 💕
Don't be hard on yourself. You're already going through a very hard emotional & physical time you did what was best for you. You can't continue a pregnancy not knowing the outcome of your own health. Ignore the haters I'm sure this was the hardest decision you have ever made & it wasn't just something you did for the sake of it. I wish you all the best in the future & hope you get the answers you need xx
U should not feel bad for the decision u made. It sounds like this is not the time in your life to carry a child with this unknown diagnosis hanging over your head. Once you (well the Drs) figure what's wrong and how to help you I'm sure you will be blessed again. Don't beat yourself up over it there's a lot worse reasons to terminate.
Don't ever feel guilty for doing what you felt was vest for your health. I'm against abortion, but only selfish abortions. There's a big difference between aborting just because you don't want the baby and doing it for your health and safety. I would of done the same in your situation. Just remember God loves you and forgives you ❤
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I don't believe in a vengeful God. I believe in a loving Universal power who knows all that ever was and ever will be. There is a plan for every soul on this planet. Even your baby's - so know he/she is in a loving place and that you are loved. I am so sorry you had to make a decision like this, and that you are in pain. I wish you nothing but peace and a warm healing light around you as long as you need it ❤️❤️❤️
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