Adjusting

Becoming a mother has been the most difficult transition of my life to try and adjust to. Being a mom is NOT easy! I had my son a little over 2 weeks ago and I've had moments where I wished I never had him. I told myself some days that I did not want to be a mother. When you've had no sleep, are nursing every 2 hours for 45mins at a time, have been peed on, thrown up on, haven't eaten, haven't showered, and have heard the screams of your child for hours... It can make you pretty miserable. But after figuring out what works, what doesn't, and my baby and I getting used to each other, I have found this job to be so much more than all the bad I mentioned. This is the most difficult job in the world but is also the most fulfilling. My son is beautiful and everyday I can watch him breathe and grow and know that I play a part in it. I nourish him with my milk and soothe him with my voice. He is fully dependant on me for his survival! I grew this little human inside of me for 9 months and now I continue to grow him outside of my womb with my love. To all you new mommies out there, you are not alone in this mess of mommyhood. Smile and enjoy the moment with him or her. We all need to be reminded that we will be wishing they were this small again in just a year or two!